“Did you know that God’s name is ERIS, and He is a girl?”
–“Manual for Discordian Evangelists”
Well. I did a couple of “new things” today, including laying it all out on the table for my mom, in no uncertain terms, that my dad abused me as a kid.
Don’t know *why* this is all happening now. Going tomorrow to the clinic through my health insurance to get anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds.
I’m fine. Sounds like I’m going through a lot, but here is the kicker: there are plenty of people who go through their entire lives not facing all this shit. I’m doing it; it’s harrowing but adventurous.
I’ll be a better person because of it. Certainly, a LOT of things probably make more sense now.
I loved my dad a lot. What a fucked up situation.
But it’s not, unfortunately, a unique situation in this world. We all have something.